She's always second best,
so she never thought she'd be the first he picked.
She never thought he'd want her so bad. she just wishes she had the
courage to tell him everything
there's a huge difference between getting
over things & just getting through them How can I trust my heart when it's let me down before? when I picked up the phone I realized
that out of the billions of people on the
planet, you were the one I wanted to
speak to the most. it was like the
deepest part of me took control and said
what it felt, unafraid of embarrassment
or rejection or any of that other stuff
that normally leaves me paralyzed
with fear. I didn't think. I just was. The truth is I miss you with all my heart and I can't stand the sound of your name because it hurts too much. The fact that I may never see you again makes it even worse. I was and still am completely and utterly in love with you. You make me feel like no one else can. You always know how to make me smile and not one of those fake smiles I always have on, but one of those that when you're around, I can never seem to get rid of and the worst thing is that when you push me away or I feel that way, you're hurting me, hurting us and every time I see you, I just want to jump in your arms, in hopes that things will be okay. But now that you're gone, and maybe not coming back, I need you to know, just how much I love you and just how much, I need you and pray that you do that right back. I hope you hear this because will all my heart, I love you. I miss you. I need you. And I'm so afraid to tell you I heard the saying a hundred times.
'You can do better, you deserve so much more.'
I go crazy cause I know it's not true.
I don't want better, I just want you.. it's that feeling when you honestly believed you've found the one that's the cure to all your sadness. the one person that makes you feel true happiness & then you realize that it was all fake. as much as you try to hate this someone for all the right reasons, you begin to love them for the way they make you vulnerable | 
this was perty so I desided to take the picture 
